It was 24 or 25 years ago we got engaged today. You bought me the most beautiful ring and we began our journey together hand in hand which was to suddenly be torn apart by God calling you home suddenly 29th December 2012. My heart aches for you, you are constantly in my thoughts but I wouldn't have it any other way. I absolutely adored you and life seems so empty without you here. I cannot yet fully grasp that you are gone and not coming back. It seems like a never ending nightmare which I can't wake up from. Please Gareth show me a sign of where to go and what to do next as I am totally lost and haven't got a clue. I love and miss you so much. It feels as though my life has lost it's way. I know you didn't suffer and I know you weren't in pain and I know you didn't realise what was happening and that you were taken in a peaceful and dignified manner which is the way you lived your life but just a couple more years would have been nice. We never even had the chance to say goodbye. I am trying my very best to look after all your pets and thank you from the bottom of my heart for the home you have left me but it isn't the same without you and I don't know whether I can stay here in this home without you but I am trying to follow your guidance and do what you would ecpect of me but it is hard so please please forgive any mistakes I make along the path of life because the leader of my life is no longer here and it will take time for me to recognise the good things life has to offer. Please stay with me Gareth in my heart and together you and I will follow different paths but will meet up again one day and on that day I hope and pray you will be proud of what I have managed to achieve and if you aren't please rest assured I will have tried my very very very best. Loving and missing you always. Tracyxxxxx